Soundtrack Wednesday - Twin Peaks: The Return

An announcement

Just a day after what I imagine was my last happy birthday it became clear that the meds are not working on Gustav. He began suffocating again, had hiccups the entire day. The vet told us it will be only more painful for him so couple of hours ago we made the decision and now my beloved friend is sleeping and he is never going to wake up. It's so unfair. He wasn't even 6 years old. He was so smart and sweet and happy. He was always kind to everyone, he never hurt anyone. He was always so happy when I came home from work, he couldn't wait for me to wake up in the mornings and play with him. Every day I gave him a kiss, I held him. This is my life, losing my friend whom I couldn't do more to save a day after my birthday. I keep telling myself that his 5 years and 8 months were happier than longer years of most of dogs out there but it doesn't make what happened less unfair. I feel so angry and alone and most of all heartbroken. I can't write anymore so I'm not sure when there is going to be anything new here. I just can't do this.